LIGHTBULB MOMENT

So, Professor didn’t make it to see me this weekend. It is the first time that this has happened. Initially, I was feeling some kind of way because I had made me available per his request. It is not really that big of a deal but I did have pouty mouth for a moment. I’ve gotten rather spoiled with his constant contact but I am going to check myself.


He text me a few times and I stayed in touch. I made him aware that I was on my way home but there was no response for hours. Then about midnight, I received a text:

missed talking to you. I had a party for her birthday.

I’m so far removed from his real life (ie. his marriage) that I hadn’t realized that he had plans. We do not converse about his life with her much.

LIGHTBULB MOMENT: as much as he makes our arrangement about me. I am secondary. He still must maintain his real life. I have to play my role.

Available

I make me very available to him – very available but he says that he appreciates it. Our honesty makes our arrangement easy. He eluded that he didn’t particularly mind that I didn’t have anyone else (though it is not suppose to be an issue). However, he likes that I am very easily accessible to him and he is not particularly looking forward to the time of me not being available.

Truthfully, we have gotten very comfortable, very quickly. It’s all in the chemistry I suppose but most of it is that he takes care of me. He provides me with the type of companionship that I desire too. I haven’t desired to have anyone else around. He is really spoiling me for any other man.